There was a time
Not so long ago
That I looked to you for guidance
I desolved your very lecture
Memorized your every word
You were the greatest uncle
Taught me everything you knew
I rememberd it all,
To this day I do
I wanted so much to be just like you
But slowly things began to change
I remember the day it began
I remember it like a scar on my heart
Demolishing my dreams
Throughout the ride
You scared me so,
And i knew not what to do
You scremaed and yelled over just one song
And then you stopped for liquor
I was so confused I thought you'd quit
But thatz just how foolish I can be
I watched you walk inside the store
I wanted to scream for you to come back
I wanted to freeze you in your tracks
Ijustwantedyouto STOP
Stop and rewind and be the man
My uncle, my hero, yes my hero, the only one i had
But i didnt scream I just watched you go
Just watched you throw so much away
The problem, it became so much worse
Drinking with us in the car..
Drinking out of a Burger King cup
like there was nothing wrong
But i wouldnt say a single word
I was afraid what you might do
So i stared out the window, tears in my eyes
Cold tears of sorrow ,regret, disappointment,
but mainly tears of fear
Fear of what will become of you
what will become of me
If all i believed wasyour words of guidance
And the actions in which you chose
With no legs to snad on, I admired you througout
What is a man, NO! not a man! a foolish little boy!
What am i to do
when i admired you for your individuality
Because you lived how you lived
No athorities controlled you rlife
You didnt care what otherz thought
You did and said what you pleased
but now all it seems ot me
Is  your weakend by alcohol
You dont control your life
You allow other to do it for you!
Alcohold producers adn the people backing Newport
But still i looked at you with admiration in my eyes
I even went so far to sa you were like my second father
But then one day you just broke lose
You beat your ids and wife
I cant see myself looking at you the same
I cant see myself staying at your house
I will not be alone with you
I will nto go over to your house
Without a car and driver!
I you scared me before
You couldn't imagine now
the terror you instill in me....
I cant explain in words
My life is at a dead end
I dont know where to turn
What have I to live for
Now that you have done so wrong?
My mother talked about it
But breafly i might add
And in that time a few things crossed my mind
I thought of you family
And how hurt they all must be
they were your kids
Who left their moms
To spend some time with you
She was your wife
The woman whom
You pledged your life to
the pain they feel in their hearts
in their minds
on the bodies which you've brusied
I couldnt' imagine the intensity
oh so much more than mine
I thought of what you're doing
Cooped up in your home
and even after the hurt inside
I worried for your life
I wanted to walk into your house
I wanted to show you teh pain i felt
Show you how you've hurt me
Wild thought racing of
How you've done me wrong
You really meant the world to me
Your opinion mattered most
I used to feel secure by you
You'd never let another
Lay their hands upon my body
You were who i could talk to
When no one else sufficed
but now it seems to me
That dreams are mad eto be demolished
hopes are made for the agony when they're lost
and desires are only for fools
So call me a fool call me stupid
But still i have one dream
Just one last hope
The only remaining desire
To make it happen I'll get on my knees and beg
I'll plead adn pray for you to return
Return to the man I called...
.........My hero.